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I have a friend

who I have known for 20 years. His name is Stuart. We became friends back when I went to college as a mature student. (Even though I was only 23 at the time I had not been in education since … Continue reading

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Mr Blue Sky

The soundtrack to one of the best periods of my life was ELO’s Out of the Blue. I listened to it on repeat on a nearly worn-through cassette on my shiny yellow sports Walkman. I went everywhere hearing Jeff Lynne’s … Continue reading

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And Now There’s Ruby.

Counselling is going very well. I’m slowly but surely battering the OCD into submission. I have a few new tics and oddities to rein in but I’m coping. I have strategies. I have confidence. It’s very hard work, I have … Continue reading

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It’s just a ride.

It has been a week of up and down. I am dealing well with the OCD behaviours and making some good progress and I’m happy about that. But I have been in very low mood, dwelling on the last 8 … Continue reading

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Therapy. Again.

It’s been a rough few days. Raging paranoia, anxiety, panic, sadness, mania, all flooding through me, as bad as it has been for a long time. I’ve been practising compassion-focussed therapy and it is such hard work to get to … Continue reading

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Still singing.

I’ve had to stop going for my singing lessons for a while now. ┬áSince J had his transplant I’ve had no time to go because I can’t leave him on his own for any length of time. This is about … Continue reading

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Still feeling better

I had a wobble yesterday, where I felt really shitty and miserable but by this morning that has cleared off and I feel ok again. I did my CBT homework. That has helped more than I thought it would. It … Continue reading

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Saturday dancing!

I am exhausted. Yesterday I felt fed up, tired, lonely, unwilling to see any further ahead because what I’m looking at is endless and miserable. So, today I am choosing to do something about it, get my head right, move … Continue reading

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Well thats a good start…

It is only ten past seven in the morning and I am already a colossal dick. A happy, laughing, not very anxious, energetic dick, but a dick all the same. Heh.  Start again, Pippa.

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I danced.

Yesterday was a good day. I felt well. It was a day when things were ok and I honestly wanted to keep going and I felt positive and powerful and I danced a little bit. Today is a bad day. … Continue reading

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