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Unloved kid.

I always felt frightened. I can’t remember not feeling like that. I lived with chaos, instability, violence, misery. I look at old photos of me and from the age of about four I have that same slightly blank, shell-shocked look … Continue reading

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Neutropenia.

J is going back to Birmingham. Another blow. He has neutropenia; his white blood cells are demolished and there’s nowhere to go with medication now. No changes to make that will help him. I do not know what they will … Continue reading

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I have a friend

who I have known for 20 years. His name is Stuart. We became friends back when I went to college as a mature student. (Even though I was only 23 at the time I had not been in education since … Continue reading

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Mr Blue Sky

The soundtrack to one of the best periods of my life was ELO’s Out of the Blue. I listened to it on repeat on a nearly worn-through cassette on my shiny yellow sports Walkman. I went everywhere hearing Jeff Lynne’s … Continue reading

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“Shut up and move with me, or get out of my face…. “

“Shut up and stay with me, or let go of my hand” I want to move on. I want to run very fast and very far and I am being held back by people who want me to stand still. … Continue reading

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It’s just a ride.

It has been a week of up and down. I am dealing well with the OCD behaviours and making some good progress and I’m happy about that. But I have been in very low mood, dwelling on the last 8 … Continue reading

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Transplant

My husband got his new liver on Wednesday the 25th February.  Somebody, somewhere, died that morning and that person’s family bravely offered the organs for transplant. This is a huge thing and I am moved almost beyond words that a … Continue reading

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Speechless

My very talented husband played this piece at his Mum’s funeral. She had taught him to play the piano and he is incredibly gifted and wanted to pay his respects and show his love for her with this piece. When … Continue reading

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