I am consumed by hate and fear and anxiety, when I desperately want to feel love and joy and calm. My face is forgetting how to smile. I need to remember how to do it before it’s gone for good. Whatever happens from this minute on I will remember that this is not all of me. This pain and distress is not how I will always feel. I will recover. I will find out what really matters to me and make that my life. Not this purgatory. Not this sadness. Not this enveloping, soul-destroying, appalling, and somehow pathetic, loss.


About pippa

40-something, yogi, gardener, reader and writer. Not great at any of those things but more than happy to be average. I'm anxious, depressed, chaotic, boring, delighted, excited and often foolish. It's all good. And cake.
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2 Responses to Today

  1. Aami Aabir says:

    Heal yourself, the mind plays games, but the secret to success is in your own hands.. Control your mind

  2. pippa says:

    Thank you for this. I thought long and hard yesterday about what you wrote. Your line “the mind plays games” really resonated with me and I have focussed on the truth in those words. And I have to say, I feel better today. So thank you.

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