was awful. Just so bad. I dropped 40 quid to be told to take some time out for myself and maybe go to the pictures and chill out. Yep. Thanks. I KNOW I NEED TO TAKE TIME FOR MYSELF. I can’t do it. I don’t know how to do it. I spilled my guts to a stranger and that’s the best advice he could give me. I can’t keep trying different counsellors until I find one that fits. I can’t afford it. So I gave up and went back to the doctor for a referral to the service that really worked for me last time I was this unwell, but the waiting list is huge. I’m struggling NOW, and every time I go to the doctor she offers SSRIs but I was on them for 18 years and took a whole year to get off them and I really can’t do it again and I’m scared and I don’t even know if this is all just the tail end of withdrawal, a rebalancing now that I’m completely clear of the paroxetine or if this is really who I will always be. I’m rambling. I’m frightened. I need to sleep.
- "Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. The fearful are caught as often as the bold." - Helen Keller
- "Don't compromise yourself. You are all you've got." - Janis Joplin
- "Take the risk of thinking for yourself, much more happiness, truth, beauty and wisdom will come to you that way." - Christopher Hitchens