I am so confused these days. I stopped my Seroxat completely after 18 years on 30-40mgs. It’s been horrendous but I so wanted to feel like a person again, to stop feeling dead. And now I don’t know from one minute to the next what’s going on in my own head. I’m on a massive slippery ride to chaos. I’m spiralling down and I have no traction, no buffer, no brakes. I’m just gathering momentum and speeding into possible massive damage or brilliance and christ only knows how it will end. I sometimes hope it won’t end. I hope I keep sliding sliding sliding because at times, despite the fear, the ride is fucking awesome.
- "Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. The fearful are caught as often as the bold." - Helen Keller
- "Don't compromise yourself. You are all you've got." - Janis Joplin
- "Take the risk of thinking for yourself, much more happiness, truth, beauty and wisdom will come to you that way." - Christopher Hitchens