What I remembered today.

When you were little you could have one or the other, not both, not an ice cream and a drink, it was either/or because they weren’t made of money but it’s hard to choose when you’re little and all you really want is sweeties but you’re thirsty. So you pick ice cream and then you really really need a drink and so you mither. You whine and you create and you make a nuisance of yourself and you won’t take no for answer and in their day you were quiet and damn well bloody grateful for what you got and you think that’s a bit funny and you giggle at the swear words and that is a huge mistake because then you get smacked and if you’re lucky it’s just your legs and not your face but sometimes it’s your face and sometimes it’s not an open hand it’s a fist and you never ever learn because you’re stupid and useless and greedy and selfish and and and. Except you do learn. You learn to move quickly and duck out of the way and not cry because that makes it worse and you learn to mistrust and read chaos in people and you learn to adapt for survival and then one amazing day when you aren’t small anymore you learn to hit back. And you hit back hard.

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About pippa

40-something, yogi, gardener, reader and writer. Not great at any of those things but more than happy to be average. I'm anxious, depressed, chaotic, boring, delighted, excited and often foolish. It's all good. And cake.
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